Four Little Words
September 14, 2010 4:04 pm
Last week, Jenn asked our Facebook fans what topics they would like to see covered in our new “Real Mom Talk” blog posts. Many of you responded that working mom issues were important to you.
I can identify. I’m right in the middle of transitioning from stay at home to working mom. I spent the last 7 years of my life at home with my children.
I’ve known for a while my time at home would be coming to an end, I just didn’t know exactly when. In between updating my resume, picking out interview outfits and adjusting my laundry schedule, I began preparing my own heart for the transition. Truth is, you can only prepare yourself so much.
What I could not prepare for was when my oldest son stepped off the bus last Friday and asked, “Why are you here?” Four little words was all it took to shake me to my core and make me question returning to work.
My son meant no harm, he was asking a simple question. He had no idea the pain it could cause. The fact is, I know that right now, for my family, this is the right thing. I have a peace about it, deep within my heart. I’m excited, not just because it’s a cool job. Deep within my core, I know that many of my life experiences have been preparing me for this job and this season of my life. I also know how blessed I am that this is my choice, rather than a choice based out of necessity. Still, knowing all of that doesn’t necessarily make it any easier.
I could make ten to-do lists each day, have a meal in the crock pot each night and my house could run with military precision. It doesn’t, but even if it did it wouldn’t matter. The most difficult things about being a working mother are the issues that we deal with inside our hearts and minds. They are the little things your children say with their sweet innocence that are a knife through your heart. No one tells you that when you sign your W-4.
What wounding words or moments have your children delivered? How do you deal with those knife to the heart moments?